I woke up, the first thing I saw: my pictures hanging up next to my bed. What were they you ask? Most of them were from when I graduated from college last year, May 2007. I look at them often, but for some reason today I stared at them longer. Friends, priests, Jesus in the Portiuncula. Each one of them different, each one of them special. I reached over to the photo album next to my bed. It starts out with all my other graduation pictures. How I miss everyone! One by one I pass through them: professors, household sisters, friends from class, then finally, the one with me receiving my diploma.
A tear rolls down my face when I get to the section of memories with my household sisters: Warriors of the Word. Jess dressed in armor, piggy back rides, Lord's Day, A.D.D. moments, campfires, lots of amazing times.
As I sit here I think about how much I miss everyone. Sometimes I wish I could go back. But we are all called to change. Change. A word we hear so often. In politics, in church, conferences, TV, wherever. Change is something necessary in life. When I graduated from high school I didn't want to leave MA. I was scared to CHANGE locations, but God was calling me to stretch my comfort zone, so much that I ended up going to a small college Franciscan University in a small town in Steubenville, OH. This change was amazing. I think I turned out to be a pretty good person because of it.
Leaving such an amazing and holy college after graduation to come back to Massachusetts, another change I had to do because I am called by God to take what I have learned there and bring it to others. What the professors and priests have shown me I am supposed to, and want to, share with others. It's contagious! Christ said, "Go now and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Lo I am with you always until the end of the age." I don't have to worry. Christ is with me. Christ was with me there, He is with me now and He is with you.
No matter what change you are going through, or will be going through, whether it be graduation, moving to another city, state or even country, marriage or divorce, or even if the change has to do with something like you have to change your friends... God is with you and that is really all you need. He is your strength. Grab on to Him. Visit Him in prayer and the Sacraments. He will help you, give you the grace and whatever you need to get through it. Just trust and believe. The best prayer: "Lord I believe, help my unbelief." (Mark 9:24)
Pax Christi
Jen
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